Smile, boy

Because that's what you keep making me do
I don't see a difference between you
and an animated character come to life
or someone who's dead
Let me bring you to life
Smile, boy.

NYC Lights

Every day, I walked under them,
breath visible,
air cold.
There was nothing more that I hated
than being alone- especially there.

Introductions, Introductions, Introductions: it's elementary, my dear!

GOOD DAY, AND EVENING to those who have wearily and curiously stumbled onto my kindly, freshly made blog! Of course, to other readers, you are still obligingly welcome!

• If you must know me, I am your average human being.
• I am selfish.
• I am unforgiving.
• I am hateful.
• I am spiteful.
• I am unreliable.
• I am undependable.
• I am hopeless.
• I am greedy.
• I am lustful.
• I am sloth-like.
• I am ungraceful.
• I am murderous.
• I am self centered.
• I am deceitful.
• I am unforgivable.
• I am fake.
• I am also honest.
• I am also empathetic.
• I am also sympathetic.
• I am also trustworthy.
• I am also kind.
• I am also someone you like.
• I am also someone you don't like.
• I am human.
• And that's all you will ever get out of me.

I have found several things about myself over the past few weeks since I've moved to this tiny city of Hampton, Virginia.

1. I am possibly, and definitely, maybe mentally retarded.
2. I am hopeless at keeping promises. To others and most definitely myself.
3. I am quite fond of painting. In my 16 years of living, I find even when I am most unsatisfied with whatever work I come up with, it's easiest to accept what I come up with when made of paint, a paintbrush and my imagination.
4. I may not be that good at writing after all.
5. I may not be secretly, and hopefully a genius after all.
6. The city girl in me is dying to get back!
7. I might be a hopeless, strange weirdo who ends up alone in the world for the most part of her life.
8. I am still a teenager, so I still have time to be a hopeless dreamer, so there, everyone. That's all I have to say in that department!